Saturday, May 27, 2006
11:46:00 pm
Out the Window
What do you see when you look out of your room's window? Trees? Bright blue sky? Hills and plants? More and more endless buildings? Nothing much really? Something you really love?
Wells, what do you see when you really look out the window inside of you. The window of your heart. The window that leads to something that traps you in you. The outer you inside of you. I don't make sense do i? But don't we all sometimes feel that we don't really know ourselves well? I mean though most consider ourselves as the best friend of ourselves and know ourselves the best most of the time. Then again, won't we all reach this point where we feel so lost be it to the surrounding or to ourselves.
Wells wells, finally my school holidays are here! =) wells, that's if your still reading my little crappy entry here! YOOHOO! here! ya. thanks, er, ya. Stayed over a zr's hse at toh tuck with other band peeps. Wells, surprisingly i actually slept. I mean usually such events you don't sleep at all. But of course, no one really slp alot. It was nosiy, so cold, so hot, so everything. People were playing er, mahjong and telling ghost story... ?!?! ehs?!?!...what else are band peeps capable of doing man...
SO, now i am real tired, really. Wonder why am i still typing this. Thus, one shall stop here. Yes, I am going to. No one's stopping me. REALLY! ... nites. off to his bed.
Martin -
Thursday, May 25, 2006
10:29:00 pm
Move On
Sometimes i think all should remind oneself to move on don't we? Everyone has their little past where they all miss or hate. At a point in time, everyone would want to have a chance to move backwards don't we? Too many things, too little time, too many things, too little brain space to store, too many things, too little everything else.
Maybe thats why sometimes we are all tired? No? I am talking rubbish? Really? *grins*
Well, I mean things i say here usually do apply to me. We cannot really apply everyone the same concept of everything can we? Na, if only the world's just so simple, then i would be a happier boy. At times, i really want to eat a lollipop again you know. really...
So I must brain wash martin. Martin, it's late. Lets go. It will only get colder as the night grow darker. We aren't very well-prepared are we? Lets go...
Stop stonning there martin, move!
Hey! LET'S GO!... move on!
"Just a while more? can't we?really..."
Martin -
Monday, May 22, 2006
9:42:00 pm
Ice Cream
I really want an ice cream now. Somehow i just feel like. Really. I want sweet too. Anyone can like give me sweet tomorrow or something...
sighs... where?... isit...
Martin -
Thursday, May 18, 2006
9:37:00 pm
Deep
Terms coming to an end. Been an eventful time so far in JC. Life in jc's kinda fast actually. Before you know it 1/4 is already gone. Wells, you can always argue that there's 3/4 left and the A levels. Ok, all these are in assumption that no one retains... hehs...
Wells, i always say things come and go. Nothing much worth for us to dwell back too long. Come to think of it, there are like tonnes and tonnes and stuff that just came and left. Guess it's the same for all. As time goes pass, things that mattered are all forgetten one by one. Faces fade away, dates forgetten, details blurred, emotions gone, feelings lost... Time makes all of us old doesn't it. Nope, that facial cream your using now won't help. I said it won't! you don't believe me?! how could you!!! hey! stop trying! it won't help ok! if your old your old! damn it. believe me will you...grrr....
Crapping once again. *grins*
Gonna be a tiring weekend. Wells, weekends never really seemed like weekend anyways. Can't wait for the holidays to come to be honest, then again, i can forsee that it will end damn fast. really. sighs. well, guess better than none.
ok, i shall put it here. Arsenal didn't win champions league. Fine. FINE FINEEEEEEEEEE....like all other soccer fans ALWAYS ALWAYS NEVER FAIL, says. " we will be back next season! Really! WE WILL!"
*grins* wells...heh cheers. =)
Martin -
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
8:40:00 pm
Lost and NOT Found
Wells, end of my testy term. No more test for this term after i ended my horrible math test today. Somehow the paper's rather easy and somehow i always blank out during maths test in jc. Yeah, screwed up big time. Guess might fail again. Wells... i am kinda used to it anyways. Just come whatever it is. Sighs.
Is martin very depressed these days? heh. no? er. i donoe? ask martin? yeah. No idea myself. Sometimes he seemed weird though. Wells, martin's always weird. What am i talking about. Ok, scratch head* who's blog is this?!?!?!?! haha.
and NO, i do NOT have a evil twin.
Wells, do you like have many wants yet you don't seemed to be able to get them. Alrights, sometimes it may seemed that your the only one that don't get it. Ya, more like that rather than the snobbish way of i-want-everything. Things you waited and waited... wells, sometimes that happen to me too. Don't that happen to all of us? heh.
Alrights, most of the time i would just remind myself of how fortunate i am... bla bla bla... there are a million and one others that are less fortunate and hungry and dying, dead. The list goes on. And then, most prob. i would feel better about things. Sometimes though, i feel as if i am some fake optimistic guy. haha. wells, what else can i say. Sometimes don't you wonder why people always think of the poorer? think of the worst? think of everything below you and give sympathy like as if they need it. There are too a million and one others who goes on much much more better than all of us reading this senseless blog. shouldn't we always compare ourselves upwards to the better? sighs, senseless world...
I hate waiting. Really, especially senseless waits. Be it anything. Really, i won't really complain to anyone. But i will complain to myself. non-stop, non-stop, non-stop. I will complain and complain and complain. Dread and dread and dread. so please, don't make me wait. I might just died out myself. hehs.
wells.... off.
Martin -
Monday, May 15, 2006
11:43:00 pm
Choose
Today's just tiring. No idea why but i am damn tired. Actually i got quite a bit left undone. But i'm simply too tired to do them. Yes, why am i blogging now then. Wells, my eyes are like giving way now. But i shall feed abit onto this little space of mine. Sighs, PE today, had sectionals after sch and stuff. I haven't do my chinese essay and bio essay. I really do not know which one should i start on. Most prob chinese, which everyone refuse to write for me.... *grrr* you know who you are!!! =X hehs. Martin's a meanie.
Wells, suddenly have a fetish to write down that the date today is actually 15may2006. No idea why, just came flashing cross my mind. No idea, i cannot stop sighing during maths lecture today. Apart from being damn boring and damn fast and damn confusing, i just don't feel like staying there anymore. Just that room. That people that smell that sight that sound that everything. So i just left after maths like almost immediately. Beginning to dread maths more and more these days. Only recently to be honest. Actually kinda due to some personal reasons i guess. Wells, martin's a dodo at times. heh.
Sometimes i guess someone cannot really dwell into too many things at one go. But then again, sometimes one cannot too get to choose over too many things too right? hehs. What if you turn round and round and realise that actually you do not have any choice? Sounds stupid? heh. Martin just never seemed to grow up. *Grins*
Martin -
Saturday, May 13, 2006
11:57:00 pm
End
Wells, finally this week has come to a somewhat end. As in it hasn't officially end but i guess it can be informally considered ended. Really much happened and wells, it ended on quite a light note though. Went to watch MI3 with ac band. Dr lee treated half our tix =) hehs. Went to some new cathay thingy, the cinema is actually damn nice. It's red, reminds me of Esplanade's theater. Ok, actually i never went Esplanade's theater before but i saw the pictures ok! It's real cool really, if you guys have the time you guys should check that place out. but it's kinda out of place though, located kinda like off the grip. Wells.. it's still in town though.
Ok, today's practice isn't the best of pracs. But we managed to run through our pieces once. Sends the you need stamina to play through warning. But wasn't really really a highly efficient. Then again, how can we expect practices to always go well and go fine. Realised it's been a long time since i took sectionals, rusty skills are so obvious. -.- martin's your old and useless now, better do something fast.
Besides band, other stuff arn't really going very well i guess. OK, in school, the last 2 exams was quite ok. Econs essay i finished at least and chem i might pass, so hope i pass both. heh. wells, actually i need more than a pass, wells, nvm. Then rushing through PW. Just finished my share of the proposal. Wells, still have the compilation and stuff. It's ok, i trust my group, they will be fine. Martin's theory of default trust. =)
On a more personal note, i think i kinda screwing up lots of things. No, it's not what happened at the Esplanade if tongs,vic or sean you guys are reading. haha. *grins* Other stuff. Guess lots of things are kinda getting me like messed up and stuff. I feel like i am digging my own grave and looking for more trouble and stuff. wells, maybe cause it's like this that makes life so exciting isn't it?= ) What do YOU say?
Martin -
Thursday, May 11, 2006
11:21:00 pm
Horrible Week
This week shall officially be remembered as the WROST week ever. i Mean it. Wells, some things DID went right, but not all.
Ok, first, i screwed up my econs test damn badly. The magnitude is unimaginable. Next, i screwed up my GP test to the extreme, how does a 17 mark blank sounds to you huh? Followed by realising that PW is actually due on next wednesday! Then there comes the chem test and econs test to top it off at the end. The long weekend don't really look long either with so so many things to be done. The term still seemed long, exams approaching. To be honest, actually it's also quite an eventful week and stuff.
My parents went overseas and came back. Wow, how on earth did martin survive without parents for like 4 days. Wonders... wells, i did. too bad. Wells, then there comes the next week's math and chinese test. sigh....
Listening to senseless thingys now actually. I want a break. Or i can always break myself. heh. wells, guess it's kinda normal to be like that so i shall not complain and just... smile =D...
So martin -.- can you believe it, the disc test is =s er, off? haha... wells =)
Things gets complicated. makes my life worst ...
Not a good state now...
Martin -
Monday, May 08, 2006
10:10:00 pm
Into the Mirror
Sometimes i guess everyone has someone else inside them. There can't possibly just you right? While people may seem egoistic, introvert, pestimistic, loud, expressive, sad, happy, carefree, there bound to be someone else that's not exactly who you are or agree with what you do. Sometimes do you ever look into the mirror and wonder who's that guy your looking at? Sometimes people are always afraid that the person inside comes out more than they should. Sometimes the bigger inner, the bigger the cover? Hehs. Wells, not all i suppose. =)
Wells, have been real busy lately. Guess everyone too. This week is chaos. 4 tests, just flunk my econs. REALLY FLOP it off. How can I pass when i blanked 10 marks from a 20 marks test. Wells, it's ok. There are like so many tests, it's ok to fail a few i guess. And i have to get used to that too. =X
Wells, life's never easy. But why is it so hard. No one said it would be that hard even if it's hard. Life's never fair but why is it so unfair. The degree is just way to huge to be bridged. Life's priceless? If you have lived it well i guess. If not, why can't it be worthless.
Martin -
Friday, May 05, 2006
11:13:00 pm
Vote
Ok, Vote for Darren. He's Number 10!.
I don't know why. I just suddenly wanted to post this.
*GRINS* have fun all . sick... i mean IAM sick....-.- yes.
I got a new mouse too =)
Martin -
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
10:34:00 pm
123
Post 123
Wells, what a weekend. Finally had a breather again. Went town on sunday actually cause simply monday's Labour Day. So had a day off. Went town, walked around. Saw lin junjie, apparently some chinese star shooting some mtv near esplanade. Wells, he was dancing around with kitchen stuff and chiefs. Maybe his new song's about food or something.
Ok, no long entry this time round ok? I need to complete my 500 word chinese movie review. Apparently i have like tons of words that i don't know how to write.
Don't think...Martin shall not think too much. Dwelling's bad for health.
Martin -
