Friday, February 10, 2006
10:13:00 pm
Martin, Be contented.
I didn't did as bad as i thought i would in the Os. I got some like 11 points or so. Nothing real stunning or out-standing but i think it's kinda ok.
Yeah, today was the release. With some boring JAE talk before that which most of the content is already known. I guess no one's really paying much of an attention anyways. So, bla bla bla. As usual. Mrs Kwek made the talk. Then Ms Lim as usual talk about top in this and that. stand stand stand. of course none of it belongs to me. Yeah. So many of the peeps around me already know they did well before the actual results cause they got like 6, 7 or 8 distinctions and stuff. Congrats to all man. Yeah, my school did quite well. I think quite a no. get 20 and below. =)
Yeah, So when i got my result i was like so confused with da counting. Couldn't really count properly. When i first read my result upside down i thought i saw a Seven over my english grade. *Grins* So i was like anyhow whacking the points. 3 + 2 = 7... and so on you see. So i got other people to count for me. My results as a whole not very impress so i was nervous. ya.
So when i was sure that it was 11 then i was relief. Phew. Alrights, at first i was quite contented, since I didn't did as bad as my prelims and even worst. ( I was expecting the worst you see.) And even though my parents seem quite pleased with the results, i'm still unhappy now. I don't really know why. Seem there are several reasons but i'm unsure. I'm just not as happy as i should be. *sigh*
Yeah, I should have at least celebrated.ha, since i thought 11 was a good number to get since the number 11 is a nice number to me. ( Remember vic? at macs i said about 11 this morning, heh, it came true. thanks man.) Or at least i should feel more contented. More relief. More free. But somehow i don't. Wonder why myself too. I think I still feel lost somehow. Guess i need to find myself. =)
The more i dwell in the past, the deeper i go i guess. The more comfort i find, the harder for me to accept more reality. Sometimes don't you think it's hard not to think back? =)
P.S. To all well-dones, congrats. To all not as well or did not hit certain self expectations, it's don worry. You are what you are. If it is, it is. (and sean will forever be biobio, TOO BAD. heh ^^)
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