Wednesday, February 08, 2006
9:47:00 pm
I am lost
Something struck me today while i was stonning in front of my com. Tired, had cross-country you see. Even though i'm in the mids of everything. So many things coming on, so many things undone. And of course the highly high-profile date on the 10th of feb. The release of results of O level. *sigh* only 2 more days... argh.
I realise I'm more lost than ever now. I don't know if what i thought was right recently is still right. Direction. Where am I heading now? Where am i really on now? Where should my next move or destination be? What really is my main focus now at this point in time. There are so many decisions to be made at this point and I really cannot see where each decisions lead me to. How I wish I have the power to turn back time or the power to move foward to see what road leads me where.
So what if we know the direction we are heading? So what if we are confident that we will do it? So what... If, we don't know the way.
I was trying hard to look for clue. But it's always like a roller coaster ride. It went up and down day after day. I never know what's next. Then another came. It makes the entire picture more complicated than ever. Ha, yeah, i guess some of you reading this must be lost too. heh. Sorry, when you have the blind leading the blind, tends to be like that. I'm lost you see, you can't blame me?! I already said at the start at the title! =X
But really, I have no idea how to move but I'm just like slowly step by step. Which is tiring myself out faster than I thought. Have I just made my own life more tiring and complicated? Silly me.
Alrights, time to get some rest. Real tired, if not tomorrow gonna over sleep again. heh. =p
Nights peeps, cheers.
Martin -
