Saturday, December 31, 2005
12:47:00 am
Hi Martin.
Dear martin,
I saw you waking up this morning. Meeting minghua at 8 at macs supposingly to eat something but end up none.
Then i saw you going back to fairfield to collect some stuff.
Saw you going for band prac today at 10 at ACJC. Combine. Then had band lunch with them at clementi pizza hut.
Then you went home and stone online for quite some time playing dumb and senseless games.
After that you left for Gek Poh to pass your junior your books. Reminded you of yourself one or two years back...
Then you left for Macs for dinner which was terrible. You only ate 2 mouthful of a burger and fries. Whats wrong with you. You idiotic bugger. Waste food. Wake up martin.
Then you stone there reading a book till like 10?
Thus now your here...
With me,
Martin -
Thursday, December 29, 2005
11:19:00 pm
Happy?
Thanks to qy =) ...
Being happy is drinking a glass of ice cold water on a hot day.
Being happy is the feeling of relief and freedom when your efforts paid off.
Being happy is looking at little kids at the fast food joint jumping up and down when their happy meals arrived.
Being happy is able to move freely over an open space with wind and fresh air gashing towards you.
Being happy is simply being refreshed.
Being happy is the chance to experience significant events to you from numerous places that you think will leave a mark in your life forever.
Being happy is being able to sit by a window plane in a coffee place with a warm cup of coffee looking at passes-by peacefully.
Being happy is the ability to spend quiet or enjoyable moments with your love ones, family or peers.
Being happy is having what you really want for good.
Being happy is a to live the life you want.
Being happy sometimes is just seeing others being happy.
Being happy is going to church on sunday mornings and sing words of praises for some.
Being happy is being yourself ultimately and being accepted.
Being happy...
may not be a choice.
Martin -
1:30:00 am
Sad day
No idea why, Not an ideal day for me. Just don't feel right. For a reason or another i'm just not happy or
normal today for the entire whole day. Maybe it's a wednesday blues. Oh, anyways its yesterday. Passed 12 midnight.
Maybe im overly mad (since i'm not rich i cannot be called eccentric, hehs).
28th of Dec. is just not a day for me.
Sucks. Scuks. whatever.
you can't stop me. this is MY blog. TOO BAD.
told ya i m mad. don try me...
Martin -
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
1:15:00 am
New year, No new beginning?
Thanks a million Valerie Sim THE GREAT (???!!!???) for the new bloggie skin.
Thanks for making it cause ur bored and suiting the demends of a picky, fussy yet simple me. *grins*
A new year, yes. How 4 years of secondary education can just fly for me. It ended as the examiner says pens down at the end of the chemistry paper.(not the best of subjects to end with in MY opinion).
Any undone resolutions for this year? few more days u see, Any new ones in your mind now? =D prepare... soon..
2005 gone and 2006 comes...
Its a Norm. =)
Martin -
Monday, December 26, 2005
1:38:00 am
Christmas trees hunting
Yeah, went town area on xmas eve you see. With minghua. Was bored you see. Was not crowded in the afternoon. Evening, nearing night was terrible -.-
So we walked to esplanade area instead. On our way we were xmas tree hunting...
so there was 155 trees in Orchard i counted... not alot? hehs.
Yeah. Streets filled with people and people. Beautiful and sly ones. People...
I am a meanie, too bad. hehs.
Merry Xmas all, Happy Boxing day. Happy new year, again.
meaningless post..
Martin -
Saturday, December 24, 2005
12:58:00 am
Fairfield Symphonic Band
Yes, i am going to do it,no one's stopping me. This entire blog entry will go to my beloved secondary school band. Say whatever you want, i don't care. Ya, i am gay whatever. argh. Paranoid, sorry.
Ok, I was just thinking, how much i have really give to this band and how much more have this band gave back to me. Much more. Set me thinking, really. Thinking of when i first came. just a little boy sitting in the middle of that once pink band room. Feeling so ever small in it listening to the teachers and the conductor then, Ms Yip, talking to us. Looking at the great seniors walking in and out busy with their instruments and stuff. I still remember the first day i was assigned to a trombone. A deep sense of reluctance and rejection. (trombone was never a popular instrument you see). But it sticked with me. Even till now, i love it, totally, nothing suits me better. That was my budding band days. I dreaded band so much. I was the lousiest. Can't read a single note and don't even know what a clef is. Always thought my life's turning for the worst for the 4 years in band.
Then something significant changed my life at a point in time. Then my hardwork and slogging in band paid off. I was narrowly selected to play for 2003 SYF. Totally God's grace that i was able to join the main band at around March that year, supposingly one month before the SYF. So i worked real hard with much help from Sarah, my then SL, and many of my beloved seniors. The SYF was then postponed due to SARS. So SYF was in July. By many blessings, we got the Gold Award playing Overture Jubiloso. We went mad. REAL mad. Nearly thrashing the band room up. hehs. Was total joy. It simply cannot be put into words. It was really one of the happiest day of my entire life. I will remember it forever, that moment still lingers somewhere in my memory. But after that was many significant events to come. Turning points.
After SYF see the sec4s leaving and the joining of my batch into the main band. At this period, Ms Yip left FSB after nearly 15 years of dedication and love. Mr Ong and Ms Sia came in and took over the baton. It was first met with many rejections and anger. However, as time heal all wounds and the band was back up again. It was the turning point of FSB for another era of music making.
Not long after another batch's graduation, i was offered and appointed the post of Band Major along side with my nothing less than awesome exco. From the start of office, we had one hell lot of a time together, going through numerous crazy moments and senseless fun. *grins* During this period we went for the 6th Asian Symphonic Band and Wind Ensemble Competiton held in Bangkok, Thailand. Even though we didn't win anything in the end, it was a great experience and the band really grew from there. Great fun and experience.
Then came the SYF. The band worked hard, no doubt. No one complained about the numerous practices. They were so packed with band, almost 6 days a week. There was once we had 15 days of continuous including sundays. Reharsals at SCH till late nights. We were all tired. I could see they are all physically and mentally drain. But no one complained. They just push it through. You guys were nothing less that great. Really...
Everything boils down to the love for FSB simply. I am not sure if what i think is really true. But if it is, tell me, if it's not, let me live in my own wonderland. Thanks. I can say everyone from FSB at that time who pushed through the thick and thin, really love the band and each other. Cause i do. The synergy was so strong, everyone could understand everyone. Everyone cared for everyone. Nothing seemed to be too tough for us.
It was a Silver. But it was ok. It was more than an award to us. We won each other. It was an experience more than anything can give.
Even though both SYF i attended ended in tears of very different reasons, it's really alright to me at the end of the day. Even though I am of course not contented with a silver, but we have to make do with whats what. Nothing can change the results now, we have to accept.
At the end of the day, there are tons and tons of people i wana thank at the end of the day after this 4 years. My dearest section seniors for all 4 years. Joshua Sum, Xian Yong, Bing Han, Sarah, Hannah, Yunling, Valerie, Babara. Some may already lost contact or was never really close but you guys played so much a part of me in band. Of course older seniors that helped in my playing and many areas, people like Dale, Amos so on, they have inspired me to carry on harder. People i get to know through FSB.
My section mates and juniors, Shilei, Lynette, Issac, Sufrie, Amos, Li lin, Handy, Jia rong, Nikki and Alister. Thanks so so much for everything making a huge mark in my life. Of course to the other FSB seniors and juniors. Too much to be named. But i am sure if you know who you are, you know i really thank all of you for making me whole. Exco and everyone. Of course the teachers for the band that had cross my life in so many point in time. Never failing in giving to the band silently behind the scenes. Thank you all so so much. Really.
May FSB continue it's long journey of music making. I really wish well for the band. And may overtures be part of all their lives. Many seniors have put in much effort here. Carry on and look for your own memories. It will be great. really...Have we all seen so many farewell for so many seniors, little did i expect mine to come so soon... I had fun, we all did. Well done, Thanks all.
My longest entry, For Fairfield Symphonic Band (FSB)
*P.S. If you are STILL reading, thanks. for putting up for my nagging. hehs.
Martin -
Thursday, December 22, 2005
11:50:00 pm
Completed and Done.
Alrights, 22nd dec. 2005. Today's FSB's farewell for the sec4s (which is me,hehs) and i kinda miss the morning stuff. Heard it wasn't that bad, sad. ha. cause i had acjc band pracs.The pracs are kinda ok, except that they played carmina today which was kinda high so was quite tire at the end of the day. hehs. i suck man. and thanks thow for the crystal jade treat. *GRINS*
So i attended the band farewell at the evening at their dinner. They had this talent time thingy which was kinda interesting la. Very well done lor. too well. lol, my juniors. what can i say. *hear vomit sounds* nvm. mm. and they made the exco carry frogs-.- kinda cruel la. but cute froggies.
slimmyyy.
Kinda short in the end, cause the guy need to lock up the school gate. mad rash as usual. WE ARE THE BAND WD! always like dat de la. lol. really, makes me think that 4 years in fsb had really gone fast. the organisation that i throw in so much effort and hardwork into. now we are all leaving. they will do well. =) no doubt.
I'm tire now. real tire. not much slp.strain. its ok. will be fine. i guess...
Martin -
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
12:11:00 am
Just thinking...
Was just sitting in front of my com looking at my blog. Wondering what should i really blog about next. Maybe i should just blog about what happened...But then the problem came, i cannot really remember what i did for the past few days. All i know is that i was very busy and i was tire. argh.
Had meetings and meetings. Busy with my own band ex-co over the farewell thingy. went for ACJC band practice. Rot on msn. Visit gek poh for dinner.(nearly all the aunties and uncles there regconise me now). It had always been a cycle nowadays for me.
And of all these days, i think i have been visiting holland v. like? i donnoe how many times. AC band prac i go. Meet ppl also go. Kinda sick of there. Once a foreign land even though i'm a fairsian. Now, i seem to be able to picture the place with my eyes closed.
Sad.
I hope i fall sick. I hope i lay in bed and disappear myself for a few days or weeks. I think i never really feel ok ever since "O"s. really. i need a quiet peaceful break for myself. I shall visit the bermuda triangle someday and camp in the middle of one of the islands where no where can find me. i'm a loser. hehs.
ahhh. this isn't working-.- theres nth in my life to talk about. lol. martin leads a boring life...
Martin -
Sunday, December 18, 2005
12:14:00 am
Tire.Simply.
Haix. Simply, im tire. Physically.
I need sleep. Really.
And its 12.
And i'm not sleeping...
i'm...simply stupid. haha.
i m gonna fall... panda martin now =X. hehs..
can't continue... ahh..
Martin -
Friday, December 16, 2005
1:17:00 am
I am staring at this space for nearly an hour thus this.
Yes, firstly, theres not really a title today. Isn't that SPECIAL?! WAH. NO TITLE NEH DUDE! NO TITLE!!! REALLLY NO TITILEEEE... big deal. whatever martin, your getting boring and mad like some old ah gong. Uncle Martin will soon turn into Ah Gong Martin. Grrr..
Yesh, due to not so popular demand. Martin will write fully about what happened today!! =D
and maybe tomorrow.
Alrights. Firstly, i was suppose to meet aaron this morning but i woke up at only 1130. Then he suddenly call me and i was like rushing for i don't know what. Bathing, brushing my teeth and everything else at one go. So the punctual martin met aaron on time at the bus-stop before "shopping" at the Gek Poh Shopping Centre's PRIME supermarket.... shopping...yeah...kill me please. Oh, found an Aaron brand cutterfish. hehs and the aunty was trying to stop us from taking photo of it. Shopping law? tell me about it.
Gary came soon. Ate at macs. Wonder why the aunty was so jumpy when i was ordering. So i entertain her by being MORE excited and jumpy. " I WAN A BURGERR WOO!"... imagine. aikes.
Then went home with them to do some eye tieing stuff. Then aaron left for pasir ris. sorry to use up your mp3 batt. i still like those mousy xmas songs. *grins* Gary stayed to watch soccer.while i was trying to sort out a few stuff. Phoebe called and ask if i was awake... *WONDER*... shes like that. NEVER change. As blur.
Dinner as usual. Went home about 10+ as usual AGAIN. always this time after dinner-.- wonder we were having dinner or supper. nvm.
Alrights, suppose to go band to fsb with gary 2ml. Long time nv go back to visit my dear little juniors. And of course everyone else. Wonder how they are coping. Since i m a "nice" senior, i shall go back to add to their moral support. Sit behind. LOL
Support ok...
really...
you don't believe?!!!?? how could you!
Martin -
Thursday, December 15, 2005
1:21:00 am
Ironic humans.
Have you ever really really wanted something to happen? Anything. Small, big, materialistic. Whatever. The excitement and the feeling of having or whatsoever. When you were a little boy and the dying determination to get that little toy train and you would do anything to get it. Asking to begging to crying to rolling. ( as witness in shopping centres )
The sheer want of humans. The greed and determination. Humans.
But when it really really happens...are you really happy. Maybe for that particular moment. A few hours? minutes? seconds? ... or is it even just disappointing. It was not what you wanted it to be like. There's no longer the, excitement. Joy?
The beauty of not having.
Appreciate that.
Thats why people came up with the term "window shopping". Cheers!
*p.s. it kinda relates to me on certain stuff. What about you?maybe i shall say more some other time when i am more awake. hehs.
Martin -
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
12:48:00 am
Hanging and falling
Its a damn boring day today? One of those days when you ask your friends to go out and you don't know where to go. Was suppose to go fishing initially till my mum stopped me due to some ... crazy reason i would say. Nvm that. Shes nice btw. don read too much. hehs.
So ended up discussing where we should be going for like 5 hours on MSN. Nothing made out. Only went for dinner at JP...
What a day...really.
Met a couple of people while waiting for the boring looking 243. ( Thats cause i've been waiting for that bus for like...donnoe how many years)
Hmm. i really think i'm still living in my own dreams. I choose not to wake up. There are things where i try not to face them directly. I am a coward to myself. In myself. Its a choice at the end of the day. I choose to hide. I suck. I know. heh.
Martin -
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
12:28:00 am
Missed
Went for the JC band fest today. Divided into 4 bands. First half wasn't as interesting as 2nd la to be honest. Sorry 1st half. =X Just my 2cents thought. =)
Kinda reminds me of my banding days. Been quite a long time never really sit in band and play as a band. Only except that recently had been around for ACJC band practice. =)
I miss the feeling of playing with your friends. Playing with people you feel for and happy with. I miss the feeling of being part of the harmony the band produce. Its that feeling that bandy people understands. Your sound just gets in place so nicely. The sound seem to be so solid. In front of you. Ha, then again, the feeling don't always come. =)
Ah.. =)
I realise i am smiling at all the end of the paragraph... =X
I am tire ... sleep...
OFF-
Martin -
Sunday, December 11, 2005
2:09:00 am
A typical Saturday of Martin
Alrights, had the most typical sat. today. Nothing really out of ordinary happened and nothing really unusual. Woke up, ate, went online. Met Yingtong and then went to play soccer with kang lip. Then somehow we bump into adriel there so that makes 4 people.
Met br after that. Came my house to watch the liverpool boro match. Ended 2-0. Liverpool won.
Argh, why am i talking about the real daily life here. Make you guys think that my life' really kinda boring at times eh? But i think its sometimes these normal days that make us who we are, normally. *grins*. Don't really make sense but, it's just unqiue to all of us i guess.
Still no plans for tomorrow. But guess there are some things i need to do and confirm and clear up by tomorrow. Some urgent some not. But it is always better to be done early than late ;)
Off!
Martin -
Saturday, December 10, 2005
1:04:00 am
Power
Why do people sometimes fight for something that doesn't belong to you or just not really as close to you as one thinks. Do you? I realise sometimes i do. I really wonder why and i still do not have the answer. The only answer i get that sounds in my head is that i AM really close to it and only that i conveniently do not want to admit or realise it to myself. What an ass-hole. Running away from reality.
Anyways went sakae today with minghua and bingrong (p sch buddies). Realise got extra plates left with food. Came up with numerous plans to hide them and in the end nothing happened at all. Dumb us. Aiya, i can hear them complaining, fine, dumb ME.-.- Whatever.
actually i realise that all my bloggings are done at night at an unauspisious hour. *did i get the spelling right?* i guess its the time where nothing really huge can continue to happen to you? Do you guys do that too? *wonders* I mean, okies, theres nothing usually HUGE happening in the day either. I'm martin. I'm not making the news you see. You don't see the news reporting : Martin Goh went to lunch today or something like that.
Alrights, thinking of changing blog skin. But when i saw gary's spongbob square pant's skin.... i think i should simply stick to this. Thanks har gary. *grins*
Martin -
Friday, December 09, 2005
12:05:00 am
Piecing
Its been kinda tiring these few days. Doing some stuff with the band ex-co even though its kinda fun overall. Went fishing with them today and came back looking like a bag of walking charcol. My mum went jumping around the house insisting that i should see no day light again...NO LA, choi. You know what i mean.
Went all the way to changi and caught a few crabs in the end, the fishes caught don't really seem edible anyways. Somehow manage to bumb into some of the band juniors there. They having some sec2 class chalet thingy. Too free man. lol, my sec 2 class has long gone disappear...
Sorry, sad us
Insensitive
Heyhey, don't look at me with that look. I am not THAT insensitve ok...
really..
i am not lying..
com'on!!!
martin's nice and innocent. *GRINS*
Martin -
Wednesday, December 07, 2005
1:41:00 am
Com'on, are people THAT short of time
Please, next time you guy pee, DO NOT talk on the phone. Its just seconds.... You can't be THAT busy right...?
Man, weird people you meet in toilets these days.
yes, i am mad. No, i am NOT gay.
Martin -
Monday, December 05, 2005
11:26:00 am
What use?
What use is a handphone with no battery left?
What use is a computer with no hard-disk attached?
What use is an art to a blind?
What use is music to a deaf?
What use is a book to a illiterate?
What use is a song with no meaning?
What use is a umbrella with holes?
What use is a camera without lens?
What use is of a broken test tube?
What use is a life with purpose?
and ...
What use is love without sincerity and truthfulness?
Maybe, just maybe, they are not meant to be used.
Appreciate.
Martin -
Sunday, December 04, 2005
12:29:00 am
Fish a fish
Yeah, today's the fishing trip of my class.
It was kinda fun and the weather's not THAT hot but it gets kinda heaty in the afternoon and got a slight burnt i suppose.
Caught a few fishes here and there, those tiny ones. There are old uncles fishing those huge fishies. damn.nvm, we are noobies.
We left bout afternoon while i left to meet my friend supposingly for some VS concert la. However some miscommunication happened my friend and her cousin so we ended up watching orchard lights instead. LOL
Its kinda ok i guess, nth much really. I mean, the dumb thing is that we ended up in the wrong concert hall with the wrong seats and wrong tickets and wrong concert. Sorry whoever that is. If you read across my blog yes, i'll refund you. =X
Shagged and sick -
Martin -
Thursday, December 01, 2005
9:06:00 pm
No Feeling
Er, i really couldn't think of any other title, really. Thats why its really no feeling. nvm me. Just that.
Hmm, i'm suppose to be tire since i slpt at 630 and woke up at 1030. But somehow the Kopiko sweets seem to have kick in the effect real real well that i m still not slpy now. Well done.
Hmm, Nothing much these days. Just went ard eating and slacking ard. Met a few people and jz roaming round singapore basically. i mean, its kinda relax. And found out that chinatown is actually a very nice place to kinda hang ard. ;)
Guess its gona be hard time ahead. 2ml's gonna accompany sean to grab some bait for fishes *grins*.
Off -
Martin -
