9:40:00 pm
Ever felt like this? You see something coming. Your just like on shore. A clear view of all. But you simply do not have the power to stop things from happening. It seems to be smack in your face. Yet you want it to stop but your screams and shouts seem to be soundless and weak. You want to save something in the waters... But you can't.
A place that was once a beauty. Yet you can't stop it's destruction. What can i say? Too bad? ha. Seek God then.
Peace . Off..
Martin -
12:52:00 am
Recent events had really made me understand the simplicity of Life and how fragile it is. How sad and pathetic sometimes human can be and yet we live in a world that is so so self-ful. Selfish. Greed.
Sometimes it would be so hard to understand such simple theory until something struck. Something thats too great to be reversible. Something that one would regret so so much and look back. Na, maybe not this time? At least for me.
Passing of our schoolmate had allowed me to further realise how fragile life is without God. How we will just simply be...Gone. It was so so close. Could simply and easily be anyone else. It seem so simple yet.. Complex.. For once...
Guess lots of people felt that. Lots, No doubt. I can feel it. So intense. So clear. So ... devastating. Destruction.Felt... But then again, Its always like this in life, Ups and downs and those wake up calls as such wheather we like it or not.
May Doreen be always remembered by those who love her as a deep memory as she finds her way to God. Even though i don't know her well, but i sure know lots of people who do and are affected. Shes safe now, no doubt. And we will always miss her.
Tire?.. Broken. Its so close. so so. You could feel it. How fragile and weak... more than weak and breakable...
It Broke
Martin -
12:12:00 am
Been busy you see. Realised how time files as i look back at the blog. How weeks just seem to be over just so so soon. Hmm, listening to some Green Day song, wake me up when september ends. Why don i sleep and wake me up when november ends.-.- and i will find a huge egg when my Os comes back. Great. Lame~~~
Alrights, where were we. Starting to get bored of seeing fake smiles and false phrases of people. Nonono, I am not pin pointing at someone, NONONO, not you you silly. Stop ! STOP i say ! Stop wondering who is it. ha. Its just some thoughts that came across me while having a simply little conversation with my dad. How the people at his office and how people he knows. Relating back to people i used to see alot and used to know, some of em, things really are quite similar. I guess lots of people dislikes these but are we sometimes subconsiously doing it ourselves? Putting on fake faces? Pleasing people all the time? Da Da, Life Like That.
There are of course friends that are real and of course sometimes they try to advoid certain things to advoid hurting you. But thats not what i am excatly talking about you see? Fakes that are put up to advoid you, to get rid of you, cause your simply annoying, F- up. Simply. But sometimes, it IS hard for em to smack things like a piece of pan cake right to you too ya? *argh*
Whatever.
Yes, thats why, simply. Came across this sentence, " I only answer to two people, myself and God. "...
How true. How nice. If you can. Someone did...
Martin -
7:55:00 pm
Ha, haven been blogging for quite some time eh? Been quite busy with school stuff. Yes, BORING stuff. *grins*
Alrights, so nothing really much happened in the past few days i suppose. Normal stuff, goes school. Come home. Eat, Slp. Da dee da... and life goes on.
Don't really have much to say these days mainly due to boring life shedule. Then again, we always complain. Complaining seemed to have become the new generation's pass-time. We seem to ignore so much people and things around us. YAK YAK YAK as if we are the one and only in the world. Whatever.
Need to be back in bandroom on friday to do some stuff. Hope they are copping wells anyway and all da best for the new COM. ( HAVE FUN ) *grins*
off...
Martin -
11:31:00 pm
11:34Pm : Currently talking to Arthur. Just came back from dinner at IMM with tongs and vic. Ate at some kinda crapy place with interesting food. Its some food court kinda thing and smack in the middle of nowhere. Hmm. Tiring day even though never really did much.
11:35Pm : Sometimes do you lie? I mean everyone lies, at a point in time i suppose but, do you sometimes lie to someone to explain or simplify something? Just an interesting point that i thought of suddenly quite a few minutes back you see. Part of life i guess
11:37Pm : Ever thought that kids are irritating? Ever thought that their level of inquisitiveness is sometimes too high for you to handle? Suddenly you remember from somewhere or some story or some folk-tale whatever that white lies are ok. We have to simplify things for the young ones to understand ehs? We should tell them things that will shut them up for good and give me a few minutes of rest at least. *phew* How cruel to imagine someone growing up in a world of lies. White lies to be precise. Growing on them.
11:43Pm : Begin talking to darren now too. Darren, and i know your reading this now cause you said you're bored. Hi, How are you? Hungry? Tired? erm, nvm me. No, i am not cycling with nobody now. Erm.
11:45Pm : Looking at this, i just realised time really flies. Minutes after minutes just continue flowing. Time and tide waits for no man ehs? Have you ever met someone that changes his character towards different people? Someone who adapts differently at different places well, So well? Ever spend now in a quiet corner thinking of what you had spend your time or infact your life doing and achieving for the past few years? Few months? days? hours or even minutes? Bored most of the time? Busy? Need a breather?
11:48Pm : Ever met an old friend that was once a very close or even a best friend? How does it felt? Someone that you were once close to but no longer. Do you feel awarkard? Or a sense of... familiar sense. Something close to your heart? Yet you feel like clinging on, but then again no. Both moved on, so be it. Dilemma? A sudden sense of warmth that engulfed you in a few seconds. Trying hard to cling onto it yet you know it's going to end. No, just a few more moments.. have you ever felt that? I had. :)
11:51Pm : Released you have so much to do yet so little time? Or have you not? Maybe after reading this you just realise that your assignment's still your bag? Project undone? Homework lagging? Plan not written? Scripts not up? Life's in a mess? Pack it then? how? *grins*
11:53Pm : You have to be bored now, Drained perhaps. Too much to take for a day? i guess at least for me. Don't one to turn one of these musing sites of mine into some boring granny site. If not you guy's gonna call me Uncle Goh again -.-. ( !damn! )
11:55Pm : No more. Enough. Rest well and nice night. Night breeze is always refreshing and brain washing. Give a try sometimes? Walk? Peaceful...nice.
Martin -
8:38:00 pm
Oh wells, another normal and long and draggy day. You see, fridays are suppose to be the shortest day of the week lasting about one hour shorter as school ends at 115 on these days. However they always seem the longest, maybe the 3 period of A maths at the end? or the day started with physics? haha. nvm that anyways. Btw the result came in half way thru bio test, guess i am going to flunk my bio, totally no mood in continuing. Felt as if my whole soul and body just flooted with the result slip. *grins*
And gary's telling me he's waiting for my post as he seem highly reluctant to post of love. Just simply refuse to write about her as he's afraid people might read. Right? Gary you reading this now? Relax man, i think most people knows about her ANYWAY. ha. jkjk.
Lets see, what part of my dramatic life have i missed out..hmm, oh, theres band today for em, wonder how are they doing and hows my section going and hows joshua coping. Heard didn't had just an ideal start, den again, who does? ha. Oh, just remembered, i guess my four years ending soon and yet i still miss lower secondary and even primary school life.
I seem to be stuck in a world back in primary school, even though i did grow. Ok, some of you are going to insisit i had never grow mentally, whatever, but i seem to be stuck there. I can't put it into words. I cannot see myself more than now like how i used to forsee. I used to be able to picture myself in the future, see myself as who i will become. Or at least those mental images that kept me going when i was younger. However i had always felt lost as i grow older and older and older. Is my age catching up? ...i m only 16 mind you. Then again, maybe i am just drowning myself in a dimension created by my own amusments and illusions. Always believed someday, dear martin goh will snap back to reality ehs?
Nevertheless, i m off. entry getting longggg, and i hope ur still with me ehs? ha. hard to keep ppl's attention these days. Influence of the world. argh. Humans are baddies.
OFF -
Martin -
7:44:00 pm
Alright, had to admit that NDP was great yesterday. Watched it on TV and guess they had done a great and better job this year once again. The amount of fireworks seem to have increased by loads and guess they just shot a few million into the sky? haha. *Wonder* ha. If you get what i mean that is, never mind me.
Went Matt's house for project. Did it quite fast? 2hrs? with Chiachia and Shijing. woot, matty's got a nice house, *grins*
Then done some homework. Followed Gary home. ( YI QI HUI JIA ) . erm. yes. That sounded so so wrong. -
Argh, if you have noticed, i am trying to keep and entry short and typing at an alarming pace with numerous spelling errrorrs. *erms* obviously like i had just said. I need to go off and do my Emaths papers which is due by tomorrow. While everything else is friday. But i wont be free either, Bio remember? Haix. Prelims are drawing near with every weekend. Suddenly weekends are not as beautiful anymore. =x
Was in #bandmusic yesterday. Seem to have changed alot and i've not been in there for like? donkey and monkey years? Oh, and its 8p.m. now, argh. time's ticking away. RUSHING*
Yes, things are ever changing and sometimes thats good but mostly thats bad. ( i would really wish if the exam questions are like NEVER CHANGING, won't you? ) Guess we will only have to live with that. Life like dat. Then again, God's never changing =) *THUMPS UP* WOOT *
And looking at my savings, guess i still need more $$$ =D, any kind soul out there willing to donate PEANUTS to me? ( Peanuts that cost 60 k? ) No, i promise no gold taps nor toilet bowls. NoNo, no golden-plated toilet rolls too. Please drop me a message and direct it to the Martin Goh Pocket Money Fund where all funds will procced to Martin Goh for usage with no further questions asked. X= and this doesn't mean that my parents are mean to me and are not giving me money mind you!
HW! OFF -
P.S. I am still looking for HBP though? ha.
Martin -
9:39:00 pm
August the 8th. National day celebration as the nation moved inwards towards the her 40th birthday. Come to think of it, even my dad's older than her! *grins* is that bad or good?
So as i was saying, my entire school was down by the marina south carnival ( something that happens every 5 yrs i think ), and its actually kinda cool ehs? Yes, the place is HUGE and there are loads of guns, tanks, helis, army, bla bla etc etc. Its actually some event that will contribue to some class compeition i think. ha, mmm, but seems that everyone's just hanging around ehs?
Alrights, it rained half way you see and the whole gang of us went hiding into some command center thingy ( yes, with aircon, now u see why we are smart =X ) and the guy started showing us Matrix. * YA! the 1st episode! the one Neo went pointing the middle fing....* nvm that. ERM.
Yes, we can see him on a constant lookout for the high ranks *grins* haha, and after the rain stop for sometime we left to roam around the place.
The place is really big, and had loads of stuff to do. Luckily wasn't that hot considering the fact that it rained slightly.
Ok, 1! left for marche for some class lunch thing. Shared most of my food with Zhen Rong, and still owe him 11 bucks... cause he refused to let me pay. *bugger* =x
Left -
Cant find dinner spot. Ended up eating ice cream for dinner. -.- now i am all hungry. argh. damn. SO now i am stonning infront of the com hoping dinner to drop by =x. IT WILL! trust me! And to my dear friend Minghua who just slogged his head off during the ROD parade. HOW WAS IT?! haha. STARWARS? =x *insert star wars main theme : TATATA TA~~~~ TA! TA...*
Somehow, just feel that someday i will dedicate an entire entry to somethings that i really love. No idea why anyways. NDP 2ml and wishes guys a happy NDP ehs? HOMEWORK!? ha. *tired* phew, after a long long day. Oh, btw i usually do blog only at nights ya? ;) just letting you know if your reading this. Btw is it very boring? I've never tried reading my own entries before, i think its kinda stupid ehs?
Cheers -! OFF!
Martin -
9:58:00 pm
Alrights, like i was saying, today was a rather,mm, should i say a normal day. no school 2ml, yea, thats great, cause we are all going marina south for some celebration cum class competition thing, wdeva. almost forgot, RED ! guys ! wear RED! argh, ok. Oh, arsenal vs chao - si now. no no, not watching. can't be bothered now. too restless. and of course every knows who will win. ;)
OK, cut my hair today. rather funny you see... as in, funnier than usual. ok, you must be thinking ( THAT MUST BE DAMN DAMN FUNNY) . right.. jz decided to try out another barber u see. and i donnoe isit gd or bad. see how many laughing comments i recieve 2ml. that will do.
I was wondering, ( or u might also be wondering) why did i start a blog ya? martin blogging? cannot imagine ya? i started this purely out of my own amusment and fun. when you get a guy whos too bored and stuff. And nono, i m not clocking on the like high amount of readers or traffic bla bla. If not i would have jz put a nude pic here or sth. *if u read the papers that is* erm, most probably not my own of course, i would have killed a couple of ppl hu will be like... terrified, petrified, stonified? (while i bet sean will start examining it for the next bio research =D no offence *grins* ) yaya, wdeva. i m lame. told ya i m bored. i was so tempted to name my blog Dotty. rather disturbing name. so nope, stick back to the same old name.
Everyone seem so busy these days. Studying, out with parents, friends' bdays, out with friends, playing maple story -.-, busy wif NDP, windowing etc. Kinda have sometime of my own once again. REALLY own jus my own. Yesyes, at times it IS boring, but i guess they are essentials at time. Time for us to get to ourselves better ya? and i m really struggling a tromboneless life. I just simply cannot stop thinking of not playing and come to think of it, there are like still 3 more months or so to go, argh. oh, ya, and i m deprive of sports for quite some time. maybe i should pick up what i left with. But i m so behind now.ha, all my friends are like WOO!.
Then again, have you ever wondered why you like doing what you are doing so much? Is it simply what God wants you to do? and you simply enjoy it cause its your destiny to do it? Or did He gave us all a choice? If so? Why that? Why soccer?basketball?music?arts?dance?play?science?maths?slack? and the list goes on? Why are you enjoying what you are enjoying now? why are you doing it? whats the purpose? What do u get at the end of the day? As for me? i will continue to look for my answer and i think i got it ;) what bout u?
God bless -
OFF!
*P.S. btw i did get HBP. but its a torrented one from the net (thanks to QY *grins*) but den again. i would still be grateful if u got a book. cause my eyes grew tire after 1 chapter =X.
Martin -
11:00:00 pm
Alrites, then manage to grab victor out for dinner @ JEC. during such times, bus 99 always comes in handy ;) ok. mmm, didn't eat much in the end. the amount of ppl ard todae seem to be relatively less considering tat its a saturday. and ya, manage to finally take a peep at the JE library. Yes, since it open i only jz went TODAY. ( oh alrites, vic says i m deprive *grins* ) nice place, but i heard its too crowded on week days to study ehs? ha. but den again, i m no library person. The books are never enough, if not comes too late, if not theres no space to study, if not they chase u out, bla bla bla.
Grab a burger in da end for dinner and ended up eating on some steps. Make ourselves look like begger. anyways. at least got myself some fresh air. phew. and my neck hurts. bet is some stunt i did while slping that i never even notice. *still hurt* yes. -
Hmm. nice night. nice wind. woo, and its like the few days into the 7th month? reckon its those stuff. *grins*
One last qn for all of us to ponder before we all go off. Do one value one's life above others? Would u scacrifice ur life for ur love ones? family? best friend? maybe u say u will. but when it really comes and death is starring rite smack in ur face, will u ponder? WILL you hesitate? will u pick up that last ounce of courage and leave to save ur own? we are all humans afterall. Not perfect ehs? ;)
Cheers! *P.S. any kind soul out there to lend HBP *grins* Dearest Martin will be ever grateful. oh, and yes, MARTIN DO READ! stop suspecting me. argh.
DAyZ -
11:35:00 pm
Alrites, guess the band's in quite a bad state? ha. No worries, it had always been like dat rite after handing over? =D ( i guess *roll eyes* ) Den again, wish all of den all da best and i m sure they will have a great yr be it busy or fruitful =). Oh, and i really find life hard to cope without trombone for NOW. argh, feels weird not playing. Jz soso tempted u see. ha
Ah, Once again reminders struck once again for the upcoming Os. Not surprised that i m flooded with tests now. guess everyone in lots of schs are. SO, no complains. arghs. ha pushing thru as i will always say. Alrites, now its nearing the NDP holidays u see. 5daes in a row. WOOTS, finally take a small breather before the next mock exam on fridae.( WHATS THIS MAN; oops, said no complains. yes . )
haha. alrites, sorry for da break for will try to keep this blog up and alive as much as possible. finally settled on this skin. Template. Lazy. YEAH, wds wrong wif lazy huh -.-
whateva. OFF-
DAyZ -
